I have ALWAYS wanted to come back to work. After maternity
leave, the holiday break, weekends…..but today? Not so much. This past week
with the kids was pretty awesome and it all started two Saturdays ago….
Sitting in the family room waiting to flip a load of
laundry, I sat on the floor and watched Baby Boy look around at his siblings
playing on opposite sides of the room. Normally I am on the go 24/7 but at that
moment I knew something was going to happen. About five minutes in to his
scoping the room out, it happened. He put his two tiny hands on the floor,
popped his butt out so he was on all fours…..and took off. It wasn’t the “Did
he really crawl?” or “He scooted a little bit!”….no. He took off like his life
depended on it. I felt flush and my heart began to beat quickly. WHAT A RUSH!
No feat at work EVER compared to the high, the thrill of seeing my Baby Boy
accomplish his first milestone with just ME watching. I ran outside to Hubs,
who was restocking his equipment, and he blurted out “OH SHIT! I MISSED IT!” I
did feel a little bad for him but it was short lived because I…I got to see it!
Monday we had appointments to attend to and I now know Hub’s
value. Corralling three kids is tough shit. I was gleaming with perspiration…it
was not an attractive thing. I was so happy to get home and change in to my
yoga pants and a tank it wasn’t even funny.
(Yoga pants side note. These things are freaking awesome!!
And tennis shoes? This work attire and heels is bull! If you are wearing yoga
pants right now…I mean I love ya….but I hate ya at the same time! *sad face*)
Tuesday was Mom Day. YAY! My Mom is always so busy so it was
nice to actually have a day with her and the kids. We went to Wally World and
she bought them a little something for Easter and I got the boring staples
(milk, eggs, cereal) that grown ups get to buy. By the way WHERE IS MY EASTER
PREZZIE MOM!? We then made our way to the local Children’s Museum. Boy 1 ran
around so much I am sure onlookers suspected he was either off meds or cracked
out. It warmed my heart to see him so happy and entertained. I was bummed it
was so busy though because some stupid kids were hogging the supermarket area
and DANG NABBIT I wanted to play checkout! Stupid kids. After a fast food
lunch, it was off to the solace and comfort of home.
Wednesday my Niece in Law (is that even right? Would she
just be my Niece? Who knows…..too tired to Google it) stopped by and visited.
She is pregnant, due in May, and is struggling with the idea of SAHM or EOTH
Mom (EOTH= Employed outside the home). I have been on both sides. A SAHM with
Daughter and EOTH with the Boys. Both have their perks and right about now I
would love to be the SAHM again……but it reminded me of how happy I am to NEVER
be pregnant again. Yes….it’s magical BLAH BLAH BLAH and at the time I did love
it but N-E-V-E-R again! Then Daughter had a gal pal come stay the night and I
wondered if her parents would consider taking Daughter and leaving theirs. I
decided it was inappropriate to ask.
Thursday I got to do one of my all time favorite past times.
Recliner naps with Baby Boy. Just breathing in his wonderfulness…listening to
his breaths…..it is quite possibly the most satisfying thing on Earth. Daughter
made lunch for her gal pal and Boy 1 while I snoozed away. Having self sufficient
kids is freaking awesome! Twenty minutes later it was back to my big house
cleaning project.
Friday TAX RETURN DAY! WOOT WOOT! Off to Sam’s Club to stock
up on paper towels, toilet paper, diapers….ect. I remember the days of “HEY!
Tax return! Let’s go on vacation, let’s buy a TV!” And now I am all over here
saying “HEY! Let’s go get economy size goods!”
Saturday we actually had decent weather! I was able to get
my grill on and made steaks, brats and cheeseburgers with some sautéed onions
and mushrooms on the side burner. NOM NOM NOM While the grill was a’grillin’ I
decided that I had Spring Fever and the only cure for it was…..no, not more
cowbell! I dug the loppers out and hacked away at my favorite purple in the
Spring tree. I slept so well that night and the ache in my joints was a
welcomed feeling.
Sunday…….the last day. *sad face* For the first time in
God-knows-how-long we went out to lunch, ice cream and a family GW run. It was
a success. Boy 1 made out the best as we got tons of clothes for him and the
kids picked out some books to read also.
And then it was all done. The week was over. It wasn’t spectacular
or anything but it was nice. I longed for the days of being a SAHM. It’s not
like I am the breadwinner on this family and with the ACA taking effect next year
who knows where we will stand with my benefits….so I still am pondering after
32 ounces of Diet Pepsi and bantering with co-workers…..what do I want? I am
promising not to make a decision now. Not with the sound of Baby Boy crying
locked in my head as I left daycare this morning. Oh why did I remind myself of
that?! I feel confused. I wasn’t confused on Friday the 15th…why am
I confused so on Monday the 25th? I suppose you don’t have the answer, do you?
I am a cancer survivor, having had a hysterectomy,however, I am currently working as a live in nanny. Boy 6, girl 3 and most beautiful baby boy 16 months. Saying all that to say this, I am in love with baby boy! Been working here since he was still in his mommy's belly. I have gotten to see all so far first! The feeling of watching him crawl, then walk, now run and talk and help dress himself is awesome in a can. Seeing him now, walking around Luke a big boy is amazing. I do miss the days when he relied solely on me but watching him grow is the coolest thing ever. I get to teach them about God and justice. We laugh and cry. We play, we shop. Motherhood is the best job ever. When these kids are in school, I won't be looking for another family to raise! Lol I'm experiencing all I can with these three then it'll be back to the real world!
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